When and how do we get it all done? How will we afford to get it accomplished? Where do we start?
Sound familiar? Try living on a homestead that’s been around since 1917 with our family purchasing it in 1937. Imagine buildings falling into disarray because life happens. When there are times you’d rather go to the beach that weekend or take a drive to the plant store to browse (and often come home with the back end of the 4runner full of plants!). When you used to have a job, but due to Covid-19 you haven’t worked in the last year (March 16 will be the 1 year anniversary of my last day). You creatively re-work the budget and find out you can still survive just fine by not wasting the gas to drive in to work and put your at-risk mother in danger. You have a child basically homeschooling while you take care of the basics on a daily basis – laundry, dishes, cooking meals, grocery shopping, etc.
Then you realize it’s halfway through March already and you haven’t done anything with the garden to prepare it. You missed the time to plant peas a month ago. You clean out a flower bed only to realize the paint on the house is flaking away and it really needs to be painted before you plant all those new things you just bought online that will arrive soon. You sigh and start to feel a bit overwhelmed. You don’t want to look too closely at the siding on the house because, just your luck, there’s probably dry rot that you can’t afford to fix. Just look away for now. Save that stimulus money for the well or the new shipping container to gut your house for those projects. It never ends. It goes like this year after year. Why do we do it?
Freedom. We own property. We have the freedom to plant, build, raise what we want, where we want. We have a creek and woods to check out and escape realities in. We don’t need to travel to find nature and solitude. We have it. Right. Here. We don’t get all the projects done as fast as we’d like, but we get by. So many changes have happened the last year, but we have our family, our land, our home, and our freedom. Be thankful for what you have. It’s as simple as that. We have more than many, less than others, but it’s ours. It can be SO OVERWHELMING at times, but we’re going to be okay. Gaining perspective. Take little bites out of the enormity that is the project list. Feel accomplished with the little things that get done. Pick things once in a while that have big results for little effort so you can see what you’ve done and feel good.
Obviously I’ve been having those thoughts and feelings of dissatisfaction. The sun came out this morning and I regained my perspective. I have some unpleasant chores to do today, but they will get finished. I’ll go buy that planting mix so I can pot up those plants coming in the mail. Small bites. I hope that if you are feeling overwhelmed, you find something to give you some peace and happiness, even if it’s only for a day. Every little bit helps!